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Message no. 1
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Dancing with demons
Date: Fri, 6 Dec 1996 23:16:06 -0700
>>>>>[Ahhh, such concern for such minor inconveniences as mere, humble
insect spirits.

Dance, Dark Avenger, dance with the demons. Accept their gifts and sell
your soul to them for the power of the Darkness, the Void. Breathe deep
the aura of gods and the vapours of death. Drink of thier blood and
humours and feel thier power coursing through your veins and caressing
your every nerve. Eat of their flesh and you shall know the love that
the bliss of death can show you.

Have you, any of you, dared to dance with those who came before even the
dragons, before man, before time and space? Invite them within
yourselves, and you shall see the true reality of everything. All else
is delusion.]<<<<<
-- Walter Gilman <23:17:02/12-06-57>
Message no. 2
From: Bull <chaos@*****.COM>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 01:17:31 -0500
>>>>>[I don't know what this guy is smoking, but I want some of
that.]<<<<<
-- Chaos <23:28:09/12-06-57>
Message no. 3
From: "Steven A. Tinner" <bluewizard@*****.COM>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 01:25:23 -0800
>>>>>[Demons DO exist.

They are simply an awakened form of the common field mouse. Genotyping
will reveal that the mouse develops a dark black pelt, twisted dermal
deposits (horns) and a rather vicious temper.

Think of them as smaller, meaner versions of the Devil Rat. Currently
I'm pusing for the taxonomy Rodentus Nuegahagen. The only thing standing
between me and a Scientific UCAS Aceivment Award is actually catching
one of these nasty fraggers.
Any vermin specialists out there interested in a VERY small capture
run?]<<<<<
-- Doc Madness <05:25:09/12-07-57>
Message no. 4
From: Avenger <Avenger@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 11:35:47 +0000
>>>>>[You _are_ amusing Madness, Demons as in the biblical demons, with
curly horns, and spikey tails do _not_ exist, in any form, except the
nightmares of man. However, demons _do_ exist. They take on the form
of man, and walk amongst men. Your little rodent, is not what you
should watch for.]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <11:35:17/12-07-57>
Message no. 5
From: Avenger <Avenger@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 11:30:00 +0000
>>>>>[Walter, if that be your name, I have no intention of selling my
soul to anything, specially not cheaply. You may celebrate teh
inclusion of evil within your blood and your soul, but some of us deride
it and will carry no truck with such obscenity.


I have danced with demons, I have danced with things that would drive
normal men insane, I think I'm still pretty much here.

Judgement day is coming spawn of horror. Are you ready to be judged?
]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <11:28:32/12-07-57>
Message no. 6
From: Avenger <Avenger@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 11:32:01 +0000
>>>>>[He is smoking something that you would be better off not going
near Chaos. This creature is a product of something you would do well
to fear.]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <11:31:42/12-07-57>
Message no. 7
From: "Paul J. Adam" <shadowtk@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 12:46:58 +0000
*****INTERNAL: SIGANet
>>>>>[TO: Sgt J S Karlsbruhn
Jake, see what you can find on this Gilman charmer.

+++++include message: Walter_Gilman1.txt

This goes in the file. He bothers me.

+++++open archive: Eye of Light and Darkness
+++++append file: Walter Gilman
+++++close archive]<<<<<
-- 1Lt L R W Lynch <12:44:32/12-07-57>
Strategic Intelligence Gathering Agency

*****PRIVATE: Skull
>>>>>[Did you see this?

+++++include message: Walter_Gilman1.txt

Any information on the guy? Is he making it up, is he harmlessly insane,
or does he actually know what he's talking about?]<<<<<
-- Lilith <12:46:54/12-07-57>
Message no. 8
From: Bull <chaos@*****.COM>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 13:04:13 -0500
*****PRIVATE: Invasion_Force.1
>>>>>[Guys, is it my imagination, or is DA starting to crack just a bit? I
think his wounds were even more serious than we thought, or whoever it was
that DA made a deal with to fix him up gave him some bad drugs to recover
on...]<<<<<
-- Bull <18:20:31/12-07-57>
Message no. 9
From: Sascha Pabst <Sascha.Pabst@**********.UNI-OLDENBURG.DE>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 19:43:18 +0000
***** PRIVATE: Invasion_Force.1
>>>>>[ Woha, there, Bull!

Stop this instantly!

All of us owe him and his fellows our lives, at least, so i will not tolerate
any talk about "cracked", from anyone! Pass auf! He deserves our loyality, at
least, and will get even more - at least from some of us.

And _you_ shouldn't be typing right now, but bring your kids to security as
planned. We will try to bring the hunters from your track. ]<<<<<
-- Canis <19:42:01/12-07-57>
Message no. 10
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 14:53:49 -0700
>>>>>[Obscenity does not exist. It too is a delusion. The reality is
all.

Insanity is mere weakness, and those who are driven by reality to such
are not alive. They are but shadows cast by the fires upon the wall of
the cave. Walk up the passage and be blinded joyfully by the light of
reality.

Judgement is but another delusion forced upon reality. The only law is
reality, and only death is real. Death of the soul. Death of the
spirit. Death of the body. Death of the land. Death, in all its forms,
is the only reality.

Give yourself to death, and you all shall know reality, in all its
wonderous emptiness.]<<<<<
-- Walter Gilman <14:55:01/12-07-57>
Message no. 11
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 15:01:43 -0700
*****PRIVATE: Lilith
>>>>>[I personally hope he is harmlessly insane. However, if he is
not.... I have not built a reputation on hope, rather on being prepared
for any and all eventualities.

Perhaps his communications will reveal more. It is too early to tell at
this point.]<<<<<
-- Skull <14:59:35/12-07-57>

*****INTERNAL: Macross Raiders internal mail
>>>>>[AEPacker, sub Walter Gilman, influx all.]<<<<<
-- Skull <15:01:11/12-07-57>

*****INTERNAL: Macross Raiders Internal Mail
>>>>>[(click click)]<<<<<
-- AEPacker <15:02:03/12-07-57>
Message no. 12
From: Avenger <Avenger@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 23:18:43 +0000
>>>>>[Obscenity exists in many forms Gilman, and to deny it is to deny
your own existence. I have spoken with death on many occassions, and
even had lunch with him a couple of times, he always struck me as being
a real boring sonofabitch. What do _you_ know of death Gilman, beyond
the delusions of your strange little world.

You invite people to partake of something they cannot understand, people
fear death because of the infinity of unknowns it offers. What exactly
is your fascination with the subject, and why are you so eager for the
world to enjoy what is effectively a _very_ boring and tedious
experience?]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <23:18:52/12-07-57>
Message no. 13
From: Spike <u5a77@*****.CS.KEELE.AC.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sun, 8 Dec 1996 01:28:20 +0000
PRIVATE: Bull
>>>>>[I wouldn't worry too much Bull. I've had word from him, and he says
he's just putting it on. He's bored shitless lying in a hospital bed with
tubes up every orifice....]<<<<<
-- Inferno <01:29:54 GMT/8.DEC.57>
Message no. 14
From: Bull <chaos@*****.COM>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 21:51:00 -0500
*****PRIVATE: Invasion_Force.1
>>>>>[I think you misuderstood my post, Canis. Sorry.

I'm simply worried about DA, that's all... He just sounds a bit strange is
all...

Oh, and we're currently making our way through the Tir following one of
Smudge's routes, so I am getting the kids to safety. We're moving mostly at
night and sticking to certain routes where apparently Smudge has "bribed"
some of teh guards. And I'm sending this through a sat-uplink, so I'm
typing while Bubba drives for me.

Sorry to confuse ya... Things are a little too hectic around here. Shit,
another patrol... Gotta go...]<<<<<
-- Bull <20:41:37/12-07-57>
Message no. 15
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sun, 8 Dec 1996 02:44:08 -0700
>>>>>[Dark Avenger, I _am_ death. My spirit is the Void, my blood is
poison, and my soul is in the hands of the Elders.

And I say again that obscenity is delusion. It is a mask which the
deluded paint over reality to hide what terrifies them. Only the Aware,
those who know reality, know that truth lies in death and those who have
embraced it.

Raise your arms and call upon reality to open your eyes. Only then can
you truly understand. Open your eyes to the glory of emptyness and of
death. For only then can you understand and cast off the chains which
bind you, staring at shadows cast upon the wall of a cave. I have seen
the glory of reality, and am Aware.

But I understand your derision. It is natural for one who is still blind
to misunderstand those who can see. Follow me and I shall open your eyes
to truth.]<<<<<
-- Walter Gilman <14:45:48/12-08-57>
Message no. 16
From: "Paul J. Adam" <shadowtk@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sat, 7 Dec 1996 23:54:28 +0000
*****PRIVATE: Skull
>>>>>[If I move against him, I'll let you know: I'd be happy to work
with you.

If you decide to act, again I'd be glad to assist.

I'd guess he's merely insane. The question is, did something make him
that way?]<<<<<
-- Lilith <23:55:42/12-07-57>
Message no. 17
From: "Paul J. Adam" <shadowtk@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Sun, 8 Dec 1996 22:49:44 +0000
*****INTERNAL: SIGANet
>>>>>[TO: The Two Jakes

Jake, get me anything and everything on this Walter Gilman charmer. It's
worth a bootleg of Jason's _Electric Ladyland_ album if you get
something useful.]<<<<<
-- 1Lt L R W Lynch <Big:Spotty:Swishy/Tailed-Hunting-Cat>
Strategic Intelligence Gathering Agency
Message no. 18
From: Avenger <Avenger@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Mon, 9 Dec 1996 20:24:37 +0000
>>>>>[So, Gillman, you claim you _are_ death. I say you lie. I deal in
death every day, in every way, I see horrors in shadows and dark places
that would drive most men mad with despair. I call you insane sir,
heretic and blasphemer.


You call people to open their eyes and look upon reality, yet you preach
emptiness and death to be _the_ reality, you are not only wrong but
suffering your own delusion, dealth is a reality of life, emptiness a
reality of richness, everything you say cannot exist without it's equal
and opposite. Truth lives in the light, and death is merely a
transition between this life and the next. You preach domain over an
empty and pointless medium.


If you wish people to open their eyes and understand your reality, it
would be worthwhile for you to open your eyes, and witness the light.
You suffer greater limitations in your beliefs than you admit, and only
by embracing the light and admitting it's existence will you truly gain
an understanding of that which you pretend knowledge.


I suffer no blindness, I have made my peace with my maker, and faced
death many times, often playing cards with the man, while awaiting the
final decision, so you speak of nothing I have not witnessed, and I tell
you it is neither glorious nor liberating, but a tedius and unfortunate
stage of transition. I would follow you nowhere, and would advise
others to ignore you for the ranting lunatic you obviously are.]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <20:21:37/12-09-57>


*****PRIVATE: Gates
>>>>>[Gates, if you get the a moment, trace this nitwit, there's
something in what he says that rings of more than mere lunacy. I have a
dark suspicion about this Walter Gilman. I have met his type in Brazil,
and Jamaica, though their they were the result of voodoo influence, this
is new, but similar. He either thinks he's the Reaper, or a servant of
him. I hate to use the phrase, but he may think he's undead, and that
makes him even more dangerous. Don't expose yourself to danger, and
don't get too close to his location, just let me know where he's
broadcasting from, if you can get a lock. I know a man who might be
interested.]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <20:24:01/12-09-57>
Message no. 19
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Tue, 10 Dec 1996 17:00:07 -0700
*****PRIVATE: Lilith
>>>>>[At this point, other responsiblities preclude my being particularly
>>>>>proactive regarding Mr. Gilman.

But should things change or Mr. Gilman proves himself to be a threat, I
will gladly contact you.]<<<<<
-- Skull <16:56:46/12-09-57>
Message no. 20
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Tue, 10 Dec 1996 17:03:11 -0700
>>>>>[You know, Gilman, Ghedi and the Baron probably don't like you too
>>>>>much.]<<<<<
-- Diana, Mistress of the Night <16:58:12/12-09-57>

>>>>>[(cough cough cough hack cough) Diana, give people a little WARNIN
>>>>>before you bring them up, ok? I was eatin dinner
already!]<<<<<
-- Slash <16:59:50/12-09-57>
Message no. 21
From: Brian Angliss <angliss@*****.COLORADO.EDU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Tue, 10 Dec 1996 17:17:43 -0700
>>>>>[How can I be a heretic when there is no religion, only reality? How
>>>>>can I blaspheme when there are no gods? And were you to see the
>>>>>Elders, you would not surivive. You are too deluded to accept them,
>>>>>but they will force reality upon you when they return. Only those who
>>>>>refuse to accept reality are insane, Dark Avenger. I know the true
>>>>>nature of reality. I have walked out of Plato's cave and returned
>>>>>within voluntarily to help you, all of you, break the chains which
>>>>>bind you to the wall. You need only desire freedom and illumination
>>>>>and it is yours.

For I have seen reality, and it is only natural for you to call me insane,
though I am the only sane person I know.

Duality is a delusion. All is Void. Death is Void. Life is an artificial
imposing of will on the Void. Only the deluded mind is capable of forcing
such masks upon the Void. Emptiness is Void, and all richness is delusion
forced by will upon the Void. Truth is reality. All else is delusion.

I have witnessed the light, and lived for decades under such delusions. It
was only after the Elders blessed me with death, with knowledge of the
Void, that I understood reality.

Your maker is the Great One, just as my maker is, and as everyone's maker
is. Facing death is not death, and only after you have died will your eyes
be opened. Death is not a figure, nor is it a transition. It simply is.
Death is Void is reality.

I will pray for you, Dark Avenger, as I pray for all wills, that the
Elders, or the Great One himself, to reveal reality to you.]<<<<<
-- Walter Gilman <17:14;22/12-09-57>
Message no. 22
From: Avenger <Avenger@********.DEMON.CO.UK>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Tue, 10 Dec 1996 01:13:53 +0000
>>>>>[Why thank you Gilman, I don't think I know of anyone who would
consider me worthy of a prayer, regardless of how misguided your beliefs
may be. I appreciate your thoughts, and your prayers, now if you'll
excuse me, I'll leave you to your undead friends, and get on with some
important works I have in the reality of life.]<<<<<
-- Dark Avenger <01:12:17/12-10-57)
Message no. 23
From: Wes Nicholson <wes@********.COM.AU>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Tue, 10 Dec 1996 22:51:48 +1100
*****PRIVATE: Dark Avenger
>>>>>[Frag, man, do you REALLY see horrors in every shadow? The bugs are
scary enough, but Horrors? Yikes! Or was it just an unfortunate turn of
phrase?]<<<<<
-- Bunny <22:51:26/12-10-57>
Message no. 24
From: KC Chase <1chase@**********.COM>
Subject: Re: Dancing with demons
Date: Tue, 10 Dec 1996 21:38:08 -0800
>>>>>[Walter Gilman - unh-huh... gotta cut down on that soycaf, sugar...

WRATH OF THE RAIN GOD!]<<<<<
-- Xya Tlaloc <21:12:00/10.12.57

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