| From: | "Frank Pelletier (Trinity)" <jeanpell@****.QC.CA> |
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| Subject: | Letter from a loved one |
| Date: | Mon, 3 Aug 1998 15:37:28 -0400 |
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Blue,
I know this is hard for you. I know how much your life has changed
since I came back, how everything you held dear just fell apart. You never
feared for your life, but now you must. I'm sorry. I can't change what I
am, what I became over the years. Not at this point. It's too late.
But I can try to make it up to you. All those years, after Mom died,
you supported us. You worked day and night for us. I did nothing. I ran,
I stole, and through it all, you were always there. But I never appreciated
that, never. I let it slide, then I left you. I never should have, I
should've stayed right there, with you, at least for a while more. But I
didn't. Only after years of living on the other side did I realize how much
I missed you. I wanted to take care of you and Kyle. I had money, I had
time, I thought...
But, again, another time, everything came crashing down. And again, because
of me. Blue...I don't know how to say this... It's. It's over. I'll be
gone in a couple of days. I hope you won't worry about me, or cry. I'll
try to leave as I always lived. It's my choice, and for once, I think it's
the right one.
And... I left something for you. It won't make up for the 30 years of pain
I became, but it'll help you live out the rest in peace.
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It's a lot. More than you'd see in your whole life. Talk to Cath about it.
He'll know more, what I told him, but this is not the time.
Please take it, Blue. You know how I made that money. I'm not seeking
apologies or redemption, nor justification. I know what I am, I never
turned my back on that fact. I lived with it. But, please, Blue, take it.
I know it'll make you and Kyle happy. I want to leave you with that, with a
happy thought.
I don't know if making you happy will buy back my soul. *laugh* I really
don't know, don't know what will happen after. But I rest easy, I know I
did right, for once, the only time in my life... I did good.
I love you
Cyan
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