From: | Mach <mach@****.CALTECH.EDU> |
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Subject: | What have I done? |
Date: | Tue, 22 Sep 1998 16:41:23 -0700 |
>>>>>[Uh...man, I'm not exactly sure what to say about yesterday.
Obviously, I'm embarrassed. I didn't _mean_ for it to happen that way,
let alone have you accidently walk in on us. What am I saying? I didn't
mean for it to _happen_. It just...did.
So now, I'm confused and so Sera's confused, and it's a mess.
I don't know how to describe the problem to her, let alone _if_ I can.
Ariel has been with you for a while now, so I guess, if anybody, maybe you
understand some of this. Maybe you can give me some advice.
Suffice to say that it never happened before. I mean, God, I _thought_
about it. Hell, I thought about it back when she was a planar late some
cold lonely nights in the dorms. But, I always ended up tossing it out of
my head or kept it bottled in a place of my mind where I don't allow her
to go. You just don't _do_ that sort of thing. Right?
But like, we were doing a ritual of change, and when ever you are
channelling mana like that, it gets to be a rush. And when you are
getting _that_ intimate with another being's soul.... And when you are
effectively, already "soul-mates".... And when you put so much of
yourself, your thoughts, your...um...for lack of a better word...desires
into someone.... And when we were finished, and she was there and just
so...radiant, and I was so tired and she was holding me and I started....
I guess I shouldn't find the whole concept that incredible. I just
figured that I was "better" than that. Now....well, I know I'm not.
So what do I do now?]<<<<<
-- Michael <16:40:44/09-22-59 PDT>