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Message no. 1
From: Jaimie Nicholson <jaimie.nicholson@********.OTAGO.AC.NZ>
Subject: What I did in the holidays
Date: Wed, 7 Jan 1998 13:50:19 +1200
*****PRIVATE: Ronin, Shifters
>>>>>[The elf formerly known as Ice, aka Murray Jerzyck... I'm back from
dumping my old SIN (Jerzyck, from Gibraltar, he'd seen a lot). I left him
in South CalFree. Boy was that a trip. I faked a corpse and all, so he's
been declared dead (and would have been posthumously convicted of drug
related assault and murder, if that's legally possible). So, now my name is
Faerie, aka Danielle Thomas, a certified Tae Kwon Do instructor from
Auckland, New Zealand. That's right, in the best traditions of 80 years of
"comedy" films and sims, I am hiding out in the form of a woman. I may have
some difficulty explaining this to Lena.]<<<<<
-- Faerie <17:42:32/01-06-59>
Message no. 2
From: Jeffrey Mach <mach@****.CALTECH.EDU>
Subject: Re: What I did in the holidays
Date: Tue, 6 Jan 1998 18:35:19 -0800
*****PRIVATE: Faerie
>>>>>[Just a couple questions:

Since I never called you Murray (sorry, kind of a dumb name and Ice was a
lot easier to remember), what should I call you to your face? Faerie
(I'll try to make it not sound like an epithet) or Danielle, or Dani or
what?

The other one: Just how much of a woman are you now? >:>

Just kidding...I already have someone...I think...more on that later. If
I can only get the formula ironed out. The last few bugs are always
the worst.]<<<<<
-- Michael <18:16:54/01-06-59 PST>


*****PRIVATE: Faerie
>>>>>[I trust that the postumous conviction would have been the result of
the actions of the owner of the body who now bears your former face.

If you need assistance in maintaining your cover as a Tae Kwon Do
instructor, I can make myself available. Even if it is just to help you
adjust to your...new center of gravity, I would suggest some serious
training and perhaps light sparring, if you feel up to it. We can either
meet at the warehouse or Haven.]<<<<<
-- WhiteTyger <18:42:04/01-06-59 PST>
Message no. 3
From: Jaimie Nicholson <jaimie.nicholson@********.OTAGO.AC.NZ>
Subject: Re: What I did in the holidays
Date: Thu, 8 Jan 1998 11:22:15 +1200
*****PRIVATE: Michael
>>>>>[Call me Danielle, I guess. And any answers to the other question
would probably descend rather quickly to a juvenile level, so we won't go
into that, okay?]<<<<<
-- Faerie <14:58:13/01-07-59>

*****PRIVATE: WhiteTyger
>>>>>[I won't actually be training anyone, the job was on the SIN as a
source of income to explain the money I have. But you're right about
needing to adjust to this form. Not much has changed though, I think you'll
find. Sexual dimorphism is not as pronounced in the elven metatype as it is
in any of the other four. I'm still about the same height and weight...
athletic build rather than voluptuous.]<<<<<
-- Faerie <15:01:09/01-07-59>
Message no. 4
From: Jeffrey Mach <mach@****.CALTECH.EDU>
Subject: Re: What I did in the holidays
Date: Wed, 7 Jan 1998 16:26:39 -0800
*****PRIVATE: Faerie
>>>>>[Well, actually, Danielle, to keep this on an academic level, I was
curious just how far you would be willing to go to change your identity.
I know you were big on shape-shifting manipulations, but I never bothered
to go into any detail of the level at which you do the manipulation. I
mean it is one thing to twist and transmute a body until it looks like a
tiger and another to biologically _become_ a tiger.

I mean there's a difference between a facelift and a little body-sculpting
versus what you need to become _biologically_ female (from organ
alteration/modification/elimination all the way up to a full blown XX
chromasome expression makeover). While the latter might be more
effective, especially if somebody gene-scans you, I suppose it would have
the problem of ending up with you looking a lot like your original self,
only female, but then, relatively, the other modifications are trivial.

Just curious. Mind if I see the formula? Not that I plan on doing
a sex-change or anything. I've been a good boy and not gotten any
weird body-doubles on my tail--that I know of.]<<<<<
-- Michael <16:26:27/01-07-59 PST>
Message no. 5
From: Jaimie Nicholson <jaimie.nicholson@********.OTAGO.AC.NZ>
Subject: Re: What I did in the holidays
Date: Fri, 9 Jan 1998 12:40:08 +1200
*****PRIVATE: Michael
>>>>>[The formula I used was designed to alter everything down to the
connections between, and spacial arrangements of, my cells, but nothing
inside the cells themselves. So in this new form I have all the female
organs but none of the hormones to get all that stuff working right. This
means that while I have breasts I won't be able to lactate, and though I
have a uterus, I can't become pregnant, nor will I have a menstrual cycle.
I have yet to make investigations into what my sexual responses will be
like... but the results of that experiment will probably be more than you
really wanted to know.]<<<<<
-- Faerie <15:32:13/01-08-59>
Message no. 6
From: Jeffrey Mach <mach@****.CALTECH.EDU>
Subject: Re: What I did in the holidays
Date: Thu, 8 Jan 1998 23:17:36 -0800
*****PRIVATE: Faerie
>>>>>[Re: the last part of your message: Thank you for sharing.... :P

But, depending on the way you handled it, since they arise out of the same
set of initial tissues, it might work out okay, or be um...severely
difficient. I'd bet on the latter since you didn't bother to fix the
hormones, but I won't be volunteering to help you figure that one out.
Maybe Lena? And it also begs the question of what you did to the original
equipment, since it doesn't exactly all hook up the same way, but perhaps
that is too personal a question.

Okay, so you'll have to avoid gene-scans. I suppose your Danielle persona
is SINless, so having it in the records or dealing with those sorts of
things won't be a problem. On the other hand, if you are going to be in
that form for more than a little while you really are going to have to
reconsider going "all the way." This is just the kind of thing I was
worrying about when I bugged you.

I suppose your mom or dad or somebody explained to you a long time ago
that boys and girls are different, but I don't know how much biology
you've had. Since I minored in parabiology, especially spirits and other
astrally active things, I had a lot of the basics rammed down my throat as
a freshman before I could even pet my first hellhound. I'd also been
doing some research vaguely in the area of your problem recently and
curiosity got me to thumb through some of my chips. Let me put it simply:
producing a male level hormones in a female body is a _bad_ thing. God
put the hormones that are naturally produced differently in the sexes that
way for very good reasons, and if things aren't "working right" they may
end up going very wrong. So unless you want to end up looking like a girl
getting prepped for a sex change by taking extra testosterone and other
androgens, you're going to have to get your hormones straightened out, or
your body will begin to revert on you.

It will hardly be a complete reversion, but you are going to look weird,
especially when you have to go back to shaving in the morning, and I don't
mean your legs. Turning off the hormones won't help either. Know why
they castrate bulls? Makes them get big and fat and docile, and I don't
think you'd like that. Even if you don't go all the way to XX and don't
give a darn about being fertile or taking a gene-scan that will show that
you are a male, then you're going to have to consider either taking
hormonal supplements or fixing it magically else your body is going to
fight you on this.

If I wasn't otherwise busy I'd probably even give you a hand. In design,
that is, unless there is a clinic in Sweden that would be willing to sell
you a formula to do this. I'd suggest looking into a manipulation ritual
that first reverts you to a gender-neutral state much like you were as a
young embryo, then causing development into a female state by forcing
expression of your remaining X chromasome's female sexual characteristics
and suppress the male ones. Actually this happens on rare occasions with
people born with supressed Y chromasome function since they were embryos.
XY but female from head to toe. While you are in there, the XX switch
would be gravy, but it cuts into the option of reversing the process in
the same way (reversion then Y forced expression would be hard to do if
you got rid of your Y chromosome). Anyway the method is all natural, and
you don't have to worry about fixing every last little thing in your
endocrine system, you just cause your body to do what it would have done
naturally if your Y chromasome hadn't been around to mess with things.
You may want to do this as a ritual, though. Scratch that...if you want
to do this soon, I could put things on hold and help you on it, maybe even
get this Theo on it too, if it doesn't give him cooties thinking about it.
I bet we could undercut Sweden and sell the formula for a pretty penny
here to clinics who specialize in your more unusual plastic surgery, legal
or not. Then again, somebody's _got_ to have thought of this already,
right? So you may want to look around.

Safer and more permanent than say buying estrogen, progesterone, and a
bunch of other hormones and androgen suppressants, and probably cheaper in
the long run, well unless you screw up the formula, and physically revert
to an embryo, which, as they say, would be bad. But then, if you are
planning on going back to being a guy in say, a month or so, you probably
don't have too much to worry about.]<<<<<
-- Michael <22:44:32/01-08-59 PST>
Message no. 7
From: Jaimie Nicholson <jaimie.nicholson@********.OTAGO.AC.NZ>
Subject: Re: What I did in the holidays
Date: Mon, 12 Jan 1998 12:27:25 +0100
*****PRIVATE: Michael
>>>>>[The spell I used is a sustained one though, so how could I start
reverting? And if I did, I could shut down and then reactivate the spell
lock, and I'd be back to "normal". At least, I hope so. If unusual stuff
does start to happen, then I'll have to start thinking about more drastic
changes, but I sure as hell don't want to start all that drama unless I
absolutely have to.]<<<<<
-- Faerie <15:34:32/01-11-59>

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